Running seems like a great idea until you actually start running
One of my biggest flaws in relationships is that I fall for the other person too fast. That’s why I always feel like I care for the other person more then they care about me. That’s why we always use the words “I love you” barely even a month into the relationship. Thats why we move so quickly through bases, that’s all the relationship is every time we see each other. No love, just lust. I wish I knew what it was like to have a guy WANT to take me out on dinner dates or movie dates. Or take me out dancing or take me out to a concert or to a fair. I’ve never had a guy want to actually get to know me face to face instead of just hide behind his phone screen. I found that but I’m still trying to see if his past strings of lying and maybe even future lies will be worth it. Just dating other guys make me want to pull my hair out. I’ve become this messed up person because of just boys manipulating me and taking what they want from me. I still am not sure if my past wounds are fully healed cause I never got over them the right way. I’m not sure if I got over them the right way. Maybe I did. I just don’t know.
If I do end up leaving you then I won’t date another guy until I leave my hometown. I haven’t dated a lot of guys here to begin with. I see a lot of my friends who are incredible and beautiful people not even have boyfriends and I don’t know why. I’m tired of seeing the same pattern of immature rich boys.
I’m also tired of seeing my younger guy friends who are great guys going unnoticed. It makes me sad how many girls are not going with them.
I still need to think about a lot of things with us. What’s best for you, me and us as a couple. I wish things were different and we were together years earlier. I think that so much. Cause you’re such a beautiful person. You’re just misunderstood. I want to be with you so bad you don’t even know and I love you more than anything. But you and I are going onto a new chapter of our lives and we have to think about what’s best for the both of us. What’s meant to be will always find it’s way.
I’m not sure if I could ever be friends with you if we aren’t together, because it’s you. It also feels like my past boyfriends have some sort of attachtment to me as well. I’m scared. I’m scared to hurt you and I’m also scared of possibly having to let go. I’m so scared letting go apart of life. I’m scared of ending a chapter of my life. It maybe the best for me but I’m so scared and heartbroken seeing you sad and everything. You said you would still fight for me and you even said at the beginning of our relationship that I was everything you have ever wanted in a girl. I feel like I can tottaly be myself around you and it’s so hard to find that. It’s so hard and I can’t wreck this. I can’t wreck you.
I’ve ended the last 2 relationships because, the first one was just mutual. He just stopped talking to me and I just saw it coming. The last one I was trying to work on it but I was trying more hard to fix it and he was manipulative and making it seem like I was doing everything wrong.
I don’t know what to do but my heart aches at the fact that the answer is very clear infront of me and my friends had their own opinions all along.
a relationship will not cure your issues, no matter how hard young adult books and films try to push that notion on us. if you have depression or bipolar or anxiety or whatever, getting into a relationship isn’t going to cure that or make it go away. person with illness + relationship = ill person in a relationship. please don’t put all of your focus on finding someone to fix you, focus on fixing yourself the right way.
How to Have Sex:
- spin around
- S TOP
- double take tHREE TIMES
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